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Relax, Everything’s Going To Be Fine

Li has started blogging again.

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Stuff I Did This Year

My 2010 started on a high. Life was good and all the stars were aligned, etc. Unfortunately the wheels started to come off in the second quarter and the second half was an increasingly shitful and regressive abortion.

So it goes. We’ll do this as many times as we have to.

Amongst other things (hosting some fairly awesome dinner parties, etc) I:

  • Went to Thailand;

  • Started studying art in fulfilment of longterm ambitions (alongside baby sis);

  • Went part time halfway through first semester (see also baby sis);

  • Reconciled with a former close associate after a long estrangement, which made me very happy;

  • Got very suddenly & unexpectedly shitcanned by a then-close associate three weeks later, with the inverse effect;

  • Deferred school and everything else and moped around reclusively for months doing increasingly little except thinking about everything, with increasingly hilarious consequences;

  • Turned 34 24 2.0;

  • Slapped myself around some for having fucked up so badly, thereby fucking things up more;

  • Got a job and started to apply the breaks.

I’m not going to thank specific people Oscar-stylez like I have the last two years.

People who’ve been awesome: thanks. People in general: also that other thing. Seriously.

Life is improving. I think we’ll be doing just fine if we relax a little.

Happy new year.

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Spring = Sprung

Official fact. Doesn’t quite feel like it yet, but it’s unquestionably getting there.

So, Em came to visit from Sydney a few weeks ago. Hadn’t seen her in almost exactly a year. It was excellent. Here’s a picture of us her, and me in half-eaten pizza form at Bimbo:

We shared three pizzas. She was hungry.

Amongst other things, we talked blogs. She pointed out that my F$%book accounts have pretty much completely supplanted the more here-is-the-newsy kind of role my blog used to play back in the day, and told me she’d blog more if I did. Which seemed like a good deal, especially since I’m finally starting to feel kind of over F&#b!@k.

She also opined that TF should go back to being more writerly and less overwhelmingly audiocentric. Quoth TAFKALJ, concordantly: “TOO MUCH AUDIO”.

I dunno. The blog has to do what it wants!!! *stamps foot petulantly on behalf of blog* It can’t be forced, let alone by the audioantipathetic whims of sundry ex-girlfriends. Well, it probably can up to a point. But it shouldn’t be. That said, I think Em made a strong case.

Blog bloggety blog.

We’ll see what happens.

~ SPRING! ~

How was your winter? Mine was harsh. Although I’ve certainly had worse. And yeah – it’s over now.

Which is good.

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Surprise SRC Gathering

Wednesday 12th May.

Budini & co @ Prudence

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Polyphonic Spree @ The Forum

Saturday 27th February.

With G and these people.

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SRC Xmas Party

17th December.

Vale SRC. I’m gonna miss you hugely in some ways; in other ways not so much. I’ll certainly miss your Xmas parties. Or maybe I’ll just crash them.

The following was captured at Harrie & Atkins’ house, at some point quite far into the 17-odd hours’ worth of extended shenanigans.

Messy night; messy audio. But I like it.

(Previously.)

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Prudence

25th September.

I heart Prudence.

(Starring Toots, Zack & Grimsey.)

Prudence

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In Cyclical Terms, Right (Redux)

Went under: May ’06.

Came up: July/August ’06 (thanks, cactus).

Went under: April ’07.

Came up: August/September/October ’07 (protracted ascention courtesy of Ms J Hawthorne).

Went under: November ’08.

I don’t know where we are right now, which means we’re still basically down. Life is BLAH. But we’re a hell of a fuckload better than we were in JanuaryFebruary (shudder). Progress occurs.

I’ve – yeah – never talked directly about this stuff here much in the past. (Edit: except at the very beginning, I guess.) I don’t know why I am now, or if it’s sensible. Talking about badness just feeds into it.

And insofar as I use my blog as a kind of metaprogramming tool, being too explicit generally isn’t productive. Sleight of mind, dude. Ever heard of it?

Teigan’s ego is addicted to saying too much.

I just got nothin’ else to talk about RN. The only thing I really care about is getting out of this $%# hole.

Which is kind of the problem.

FFS stop digging and chill the fuck out, man.

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Blah

Freakley told me last night to turn my shittiness into art. Personal motto: “redeem garbage”, apparently. This is what she told me when we first met in early ’07, too.

“Make art!” she says.

She’s good like that.

Trouble is, my shittiness basically consists of an inability to put any meaningful form or shape around anything. Narrative failure. Everything seems completely empty and pointless. Whinge piss moan blah.

When I crash, I tear myself to pieces trying to Figure Myself And Everything Generally Out – metaphysical arms flailing comically – until I feel my sanity seriously starting to disintegrate. Then I give up, and just live vacantly from one atomized moment to the next.

There’s not much you can make from that. Got art? Well, no. That’s kind of the problem.

That said, this here blog was originally started in a bid to pull myself out of that void. And it totally worked, over time.

But the last two times I’ve been seriously down since then (mid ’06; mid ’07), I didn’t really talk about it much here. It seemed self-sabotaging to advertise it too explicitly. And also pointless. Natch.

I didn’t really socialise, either. This time I am, a bit. I worry that’s similarly self-sabotaging and is doing irrepairable damage to the relationships in question.

Contact with other people gives you (some) perspective, makes you feel less alone, and generally makes life a bit easier. All of which is nice.

But ultimately allowing people to see much of you when you’re like this just weakens you further. It just fuels the negative self image which is getting you so down in the first place.

“Hi, my existence is a gaping abyss of infinite horror; I feel completely worthless and useless, and I don’t really give a shit about anything except how useless and worthless I feel. Er.. how are you?” Doesn’t help.

Here's a picture of my rolling machine. It is a true friend to me at this time. It indulges my self-destructive tendencies and doesn't judge me. Because just like me (me, me, me, me etc), it has no brain. We make a good team.

Meh; I’m on the up, gradually.

I was really in hell a few months ago.

I’m not in hell now. Just – yeah – a big ol’ envoided vacuum of blah.

And I won’t be here forever.

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Abort Abort etc

Red light at The Pinnacle

(Previously; etc, etc, etc, etc, etc.)

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Canberra Redux (Two)

Sunday.

Teigan is coffee & cigarettes. 11:06am

Teigan is in Glebe Park. 12:40pm

Teigan is riding out a passing wave of terrible sadness. 2:08pm

Teigan is having a quick one with Ev. 3:32pm

Teigan is at Dan's wedding. 4:43pm

Teigan is at Dan's wedding. 4:43pm

Teigan is at Dan's wedding. 4:43pm

Teigan is not dancing. 9:26pm

Teigan is back at the Phoenix. 10:21pm

Sunday.

Teigan is calling a taxi. 9:12am

Teigan is going home. 9:28am

Teigan is coffee on the porch at Bent St. 12:22pm

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Canberra Redux (One)

So yeah – Toots & I went to Canberra the weekend before last.

We grew up there. I left in 2004, and haven’t been back since 2005 (previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously).

I Facebooked the whole trip from beginning to end in status updates and pictures from my phone. Which gave me a thrill. Fuck you if you can’t understand.

(No seriously – fuck you, dear reader. Fuck you to hell. I hope your face is revoltingly disfigured by a horrible flesh eating virus. I really mean that.)

The ‘Tendo suggested I post the whole mini-feed saga in all its glory here. But even I have my limits.

Here’s some pictures and audio, though. Hover for captions etc.

Saturday

Teigan is turning on flight mode. 2:16pm / Teigan is turning off flight mode. 3:26pm

Teigan is at Gus's. This is quite weird. 5:05pm

Teigan is watching Toots shop for wedding clothes, etc. 5:30pm

Teigan is watching Toots shop for wedding clothes, etc. 5:30pm

Teigan is loitering in Civic bus interchange. 5:55pm

Teigan is at the Phoenix, not smoking because of course you can't anymore. 6:02pm

Teigan is at the Phoenix, not smoking because of course you can't anymore. 6:02pm

Teigan is figuring out how to get to there using Google Maps. 8:26pm

Teigan is going there. 8:37pm

Teigan has totally been FB-stalked to his physical location by R*b*rt G*th & W*nst*n O*k*s, of all the people. 11:23pm

Teigan is back at the Phoenix. 11:48pm

Teigan is feeling very haunted & illusion-of-time-y. 12:13am

Teigan is at Kingos eating chips & gravy from Chicken Gourmet. 1:04am

(To be continued.)

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Things To Be Thankful For (Seven)

Art.

Specifically: really goddamn good art.

Notes from The Vorticist

Fuck yeah.

(Previously; elsewhere.)

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Things To Be Thankful For (Three)

Schnozzie.

Feet at Airey's Inlet

Our relationship (whatever it is) has always been problematic and remains so in some ways. But the best ones often are.

After SPOD

I wish I could do a better job sometimes of making her understand how much I value and care about her.

The artist in Boston, shortly before sending me some of the funniest text messages I have ever received

She’s been a huge force for awesomeness in my life this year. She’s a legend and I fucking love her.

(Previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously, previously.)

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Battle Fatigue

It’s been a good winter on Planet T.

It’s sure as hell ripped off the head and shat down the neck of the previous one, which nearly killed me. (No, really.) We’re Learning To Do Winter, apparently. Hooray for that.

But I’m ready for it to be over now.

TIA!

UPDATE (Friday): You are not listening to me, weather.

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